If only I could have recognized

but I didn't, I still don't

I didn't sense it...

(Was this your fault?

no, I take the blame for this big fall and I'm happy that I am able to do so.)

I felt it all the time, the baggage (my own)...

the torment, the throe, the hunger for life.

The spasm, the sudden constriction of my hollow heart...

How unique...

vital thought...

but I didn't think then what were the problems

my problems

and how to resolve them

I do now

I did

I resolved...