My mind keeps throwing these ideas. The thoughts, as always, are floaing around - stopping for a split second, each thought at a time, to get my attention.

The ones that terrify me move along very quickly.

The ones that intrigue me stay a little longer, sometimes for a while.

All of these thoughts that come and go can be blocked with distractions. In this current period of time I excel in creating distractions for my thoughts. They can't stand a chance.

I'm traveling to Washington, DC one week from today. I'm depending on that trip to set me straight. I know it's absurd due to the fact that I said to all of my confusing friends before they traveled and put their hope in the trip's "hands" that it's unnecessary and they can help themselves anywhere they at.

I guess now that I'm in their shoes I can relate and understand.

The one thing I want to improve and afraid of its reaction to my trip is my anxiety. I'm scared of everything and I wish I can be more calm. I know the trip wouldn't treat it, but I hope I can do some exercises inside during my trip that maybe would sink in and make my life more comfortable.