My mind keeps throwing these ideas. The thoughts, as always, are floaing around - stopping for a split second, each thought at a time, to get my attention.

The ones that terrify me move along very quickly.

The ones that intrigue me stay a little longer, sometimes for a while.

All of these thoughts that come and go can be blocked with distractions. In this current period of time I excel in creating distractions for my thoughts. They can't stand a chance.

I'm traveling to Washington, DC one week from today. I'm depending on that trip to set me straight. I know it's absurd due to the fact that I said to all of my confusing friends before they traveled and put their hope in the trip's "hands" that it's unnecessary and they can help themselves anywhere they at.

I guess now that I'm in their shoes I can relate and understand.

The one thing I want to improve and afraid of its reaction to my trip is my anxiety. I'm scared of everything and I wish I can be more calm. I know the trip wouldn't treat it, but I hope I can do some exercises inside during my trip that maybe would sink in and make my life more comfortable.

Why do we seek the story?
Keep looking for magic,

For mysteries
Believe in unreachable fairy tales
Why aren't we satisfied with normality,
With simplicity?
Everything has to be special and unique
A one time event
a memory no one will ever forget
If life is all about happiness,
Why wouldn't we just lower the bar a bit?
The expectations?
And enjoy every little thing

as if they're full of magic.