I was sitting in my room
watching TV
while someone knocked my door
so I walkd to the door
tryng to think who whold it be
and when I opend the door
something hit me
really really bad
it wasn't my mom
it wasn't a guest
it was me
it was my feeligs
my very old ones
hitting me again
I tried to refuse
I tried to tell them to go away
bat they wholdn't
I guess I never let go
and now
the only person who got hurt
was me
I feel very hurt
I barely stand it
I really wanna see him again
and kiss him so passionately
and just tell him I want everythig
back the way it was
.I am not talking about Emil