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אהלןןןןןן לכולם...אני אתמזלטוב לי...
הגיע הזמן באמת שאני אפתח בלוג.. אני כל הזמן חושבת על זה. יש לי המון על הראש.
אני פשוט מסוג האנשים האלה שלא מפסיקים לחשוב? שהמוח לא יכול להפסיק לטחון?
אז הנה.
בכל אופן, אני ביום חופש היום. לקחתי את אתמול חצי יום ואת כל היום הזה. היה לי רבעוש שכזה... זה בגלל החתונה שהייתה אתמול לחברה שלי. רציתי להספיק להתארגן, וגם חשבתי שאני אשאר הרבה יותר מאוחר שם ממה שבאמת נשארתי... אבל בקטנה. הצבא ישרוד גם בלעדיי ליום וחצי.
אה אגב- קוראים חדשים שלי. לעיתים אני יכולה לעבור לאנגלית, פשוט משום שיש דברים שאני מוצאת שהכי קל לי לבטא בשפה שהיא לא עברית.
חלמתי על אלי הלילה. אני רושמת את זה כרגע רק כדי לא לשכוח לכתוב על החלום יותר מאוחר.
Anyway, the other day, while I'm crossing (working out on the cross trainer) I was thinking about weddings.
I started to imagine how mine's gonna look like. What's it gonna feel like. Who will stand beside me underneath the canopy (btw- I'v just googled it to see the meaning)...
It is more than a simple curiosity of a little girl. I'v been occupied allot lately with relationships matters.
I have had many disappointments lately in the guys zone (funny- GUYs zone... lol). Hoever, there will always be another man for me to catch a hook on.
And that's exactly the way this works for me.
אני יכולה פשוט להתפס על מישהו, ושומדבר אחר לא ישנה לי! לא משנה כמה גברים אני עלולה "לפספס", או כמה הזדמנויות יהיו לי, וכ-מ-ה יתחילו איתי.. גברים שבמצב רגיל יהוו אופציה סבירה ושתהיה אפשרות להתתפתחות קשר- אני פשוט אסנן. Sad but true
And there's like, always someone! Till recently it was R. He's a truly stupid and pathetic story.
You see, I'v worked with him a few times, and the girls in my office always talked about how handsome he is, and all that stuff, and honestly, I didn't really know what they were talking about. I mean, he looked nice, with his blonde hair and his pretty blue eyes and all.. and he's also tall (height issues- we'll see about that as we continue....)
ANYWAY, at first, the cute lieutenant didn't put on much impression on me. But I do remember him being nicer to me than to the other girls in the office.
I also had a boyfriend at the time- Eli, whom will be spoke on here and there...
And then came by Birthday. I was alone in the office that day, just looking for finishing the work quickly and going home- I had some things I wanted to do that day...
The time is 14:00- 15:00, R calls. He needs a map. I tell him about my BD (he asks- how am I doing, it's been a long time since we last spoke and such... so I tell him) . And here starts the crush.
I became obsessed with him. I wanted him, and only him. And we didn't even spoke!! He didn't even confirm me on fucking facebook, goddamn. But I wanted him.
I think I'v sent him 4-5 friend requests . Nada. Drove me CRAZY. Why? Eventually, in spite of the negative feeling I had about this whole thing (I can usually tell if a guy's into me or not), I'm doing the craziest thing, I think.- I send him a fucking text message. Why???... I mean, it worked well when I sent him Mazaltof on his BD (friends of friends on FB). But when it came to messages like "how you doin'"- It didn't. And I don't mean like - dry responses. No. No response at all. NOTHING. I went bananas. Couldn't stop thinking. The subject occupied my thoughts, my heart, my all. Why he says nothing? For me, it also meant another reason to be depressed.
Eventually I sent one of his soldiers to check it out, and he says R had a girlfriend.
You see?
A fucking girlfriend!
Damn it, why can't you say something? Why can't you text "Hey O, I'm sorry girl, but I'm not available", or something like "You pathetic! I'm ignoring you on Facebook, I have a girlfriend" or, I don't know... Anything could have worked. Really. When someone is occupied, I just move on. So then I got to the conclusion the guy is a loser... Or maybe he's just not enough man. Solace.
=)
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