האמת? שאתמול בלילה כשחזרתי תכננתי לכתוב פוסט הרבה יותר משמח מזה, אבל באמת שטוב שחיכיתי לבוקר. וכרגע, בפרספקטיבה של יום שלם, קשה לי קצת להתייחס בכל העניין בקלילות וכיף.

The thing is, I had sex last night in the back of a car. Un-fucking-believable.

It's not like I care too much, nor I feel cheap, or contaminated. Just wasted, a little bit.

I really do believe I worth more than a bang on the back-seat.

Even Eli gave me more respect. I'm not sure I'm built for this kind of things. And I do try to look at everything as experiences. 

I FUCKING DID HANDSOME VADIM YESTERDAY NIGHT!!!

lol

I have wanted this for a long time, but I'v always imagined it in a more serious way. More respectful. The guy didn't touch me the whole evening, and I really gave him a nice evening yesterday with a visit to the center, we drank beer in a cute pub, then I gave him a tour to טיילת לואי or however you say טיילת.

It was very nice. But during the whole night he never gave me the slightest sign of something beyond. Fuck him.

He also hasn't called, the bustard. Not until just a few minutes ago, making me fell bad. Like, this sort of emptiness I felt after that horrific night with Gal. Damn. Lucky I didn't called V. That would totally be pathetic.

I had this weird dream (as usual) this night. 

I dreamt I was driving in the streets of Haifa, in Horev center, the Carmel center and all, and I did this all with my korkinet (???). I'v decided I would drive home on that stupid thing. And as I'm driving, I bump into unpleasant people and situations, but I keep going. At some point I realised I was doing it because my Astra got stuck in the side of the way and so I decided to pull the korkinet out of the back of the car and use it to drive home (wtf?!). However the car broke down near Bat-Galim, and I climbed up to the carmel with the fucking korkinet, instead of turning and returning home.

Anyway, at some point I got to the beach, and I notice I was up a staircase. Up the was kind of a roof, on which were the dorms of some Israeli missile ships. Some of which I knew, and surprisingly enough, some of them were girls! Like it was something new to combine girls as regular missile-ships-fighters. 

Anyway, when I neared the edge of the staircase in order to come down it, I decided to leave my korkinet on the side of the staircase. BTW this part of the dream was in day-light. Then I saw Yura (gym). My korkinet then broke down also, it simply fell down the staircase. So Yura suggested to take me home in his car, and I refused in the beginning because I wanted to do the way on my own (probably to burn calories or somoething), but eventually I agreed. 

That said, I never in the dream saw myself climbing down the stairs. That's impoortant.

I know how to interpretate this dream. It's a bit of a dig, because I have to explain first WHO is Yura and what does he have to do with taking me in his car, and what a drive in a car symbolizes in a dream, and there's Family Guy on YesComedy now, besides the fact I'm just tired.

To be continued.