Why can't I, like a normal person, write in my real-life, hand-made paper, 19.95$ journal? Why, since you asked, I'm clearly a DUMBASS.
my excuses are always filled will poise.
I'm writing because /mua/ have nothing better to do, and I love to complain about the universe (that seems to fuck me over every minute of the day. Great hobby, universe!) I also missed expressing my thoughts, because they are super important and will always have a deeper meaning once I'm finished writing said thoughts down. In fact, they might become so riddled with meaning even I would get lost in the meaning of my MEANINGFULL writing.
Don't you feel cool when you use the same word at least twice in one sentance? I know I do.
So, the big point of the day is - No matter where you reside, you can still turn it into a boring ewxperience. I personally went over board with the boring, and pushed it into the disgusting area. So disgusting, actually, that I managed to make my neighbourhood feel like a Stalin village filled with chickens and people with southern accents. Now that I think about it, it's all too close to the border of lunatic. Why can't I ever be poetic enough to releash my inner oxford vocab and avoid ever using the words 'fail', 'retard', and 'Lol'. Lol.
You know, while I was on my Harry Potter fanfiction hype a couple of weeks ago (no comment.) I came across a really interesting fact; while the number of fanfics in the Harry/Draco pairing lacks neither quality nor quantity, The Harry/Ron pairing is surprisingly small, and if we're conserning ratios, it's almost inexistent. Why? I would really like to know. I think there's not much on my scale that will pass 'best friends in love' hotness-wise. then why is Harry/Snape that popular? Since when is Teacher/Student with at least 40 years age difference is a hot thing? hotter than best friends in love?
I cannot deny the popularity of Harry/Draco, it is the best kind of pairing in any possible fandom. It's just like Naruto/Sasuke. Friends, but never friends. Rivals. Enemies. Well, less friendship more one boy pwnage. Point taken, I hope?
I wish I could read more Harry/Ron fanfics, and sadly, quantity stops me. Evil Quantity, evil.
You know, I'd really like to bypass this difference in feelings, when it comes to real-life versus online diaries. I mean, it's true, it's a little different. When you write in a real life diary, you write to yourself, to the diary. Some people write to God.. well, point taken? Now online diaries, well, they're not intended to be any different, mostly not. But still, we end up thinking, what if someone reads it? and adress the audience. While in reality, your blog is closed, private, no one can reach it but you. But it still feels like you're sending it off to a lot of people, and it's not your mind anymore. You feel obligated to consider what you write and censor yourself. I think it's really wrong, and I want to shut off that feeling.
Being real with yourself can be exteremely cool, isn't it so?
I'm off then, dear BLOG. (Cause, even if I was ranting, I'm kind of still sending it to the universe, knowing people might one day read this piece of shit I'm writing.)
Hasta Luego.
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